Family

OK so this is the first time I blog. I love reading other peoples blogs so this just be something I will stick with. Time will tell.

So I really want to talk about my family.

Start off with my immediate fam. I have two wonderful kids. Edwin age 4 1/2 and Arianna age 20 months.

I also have to step sons Jay age 12 and Giovanni age 6. None of which lives with us. Jay lives in Philly and Giovanni live in Puerto Rico. I love them both to death but i am more attached to Gio. I only met Jay once when he spent the summer of 2007 in Puerto Rico with us. and Giovanni well since he lived by us we always saw him.

So I am not "officially" married to Samuel. (pictured above) but we do plan on getting married. As soon as I get divorced. LOL did that raise an eyebrow. OK so here is the deal. I am married to Edwin's dad. We got married back in 2003. after being together for 2 years. We had Edwin in Orlando, FL and the moved to Puerto Rico when he was 6 months back in 2004. We lived there very unstable. We started to have our arguments. and really it started to go down hill. He spent more time drinking than at home and i really don't want to make it sound as if was all bad becuase I am no angel myself. every time I found a reason to get mad. I did and it always ended up in a UFC match. I get mad I hit him, he hit me back. or vice versa... so it really came to a quick end. In Oct. of 2005 we i told him I was not happy anymore and i wanted to be separated. So he was in and out of the house for a good six months or so. He would always come back home and say we would change. I vowed the same. He came back in April for good and spent a couple of months home. It was not the same anymore. We had a lot of trust issues. I heard rumors on how he was with someone else and i told him that there would be no "loving" until he gets checked out by a Doctor. I did not want him to give me any STD or anything of that sort... So he refused to do that... and i refused any kind of "love" no kissing, hugging, sleeping in the same bed. and really I was happy. At this time I was working. I would get off late and he refused to pick me up. So i had to hitch a ride. that happen for a while. Now in June i started getting a ride with Sammy. (my spouse now)lol and we just always talked. He knew I was married and I knew he had a g-friend. SO our thing was really innocent. But I started falling for him. But before anything happened between us I talk to my current husband at the time and told him I wasn't happy. We had gone several months without any kind of love and I wasn't having it. I told him he should leave and go on about his life. He refused so OK i went on with mine. i started to get to know Sammy more.

On 4th of July 2005 I received a phone call from my current hubby at work at approx. 8:30pm. He asked me " what time do you get off" I said i think I might be out of here by 9:30 pm I was just finishing up. That was super early I usually get of about 1-2 am. So as always he was DRUNK and he said I would have to find a ride home because he was to blasted to drive and he had the baby. OK he also said to find a way to eat something because he didn't make dinner. He ate at his moms with the baby. Then he asked a weird question. He said who is going to bring you home the same person as always. I said well i don't know but I will get there. OK no problem. At approx 9 o'clock that same night I received another call but this one was Sammy. Oh how my heart skipped a beat when I heard his voice. He usually worked but that night he had it off. I worked at a logistics company I worked in the office upstairs and he worked in the warehouse downstairs. Well anyways the phone call. So he told me that night he was off. He was worried if i had a way home that night. I told him about the phone call with my husband and he said don't worry I will get you. what time do you get off? 9:30 i said. So I hurried and finished my work and rush outside so he doesn't have to wait to long. I got into his car and we left. On the way home he asked if I was hungry I said as a matter of fact I am. So we went to Burger King. he bought some food for the both of us while we sat in the parking lot and ate it. He started to tell me how he broke up with his girl because he felt as if he were cheating.

I said with who because "WE" have never done anything. He started to tell me how he felt. OH WOW!!!! Little did he know I felt the same. but I'll be damned if I tell him.

So i said I think its time for you to take me home. it was now 10:15. When I arrived home I saw all the lights off. Well that's weird because my mom always leaves the porch light on. So I we drove by I saw my mom with my son on her hip and a shadow in the corner. I told Sammy to drive up to the other corner and drop me off there because i saw something weird at home. ALWAYS follow your instincts. sure enough that shadow i saw in the corner was my drunk husband. i soon as i got out of the car he starting running after me talking about how he was going to kill me. I went in the house and i say he broke the T.V. the DVD player, the fan, and the eating table. He grabbed me by the neck and choked me. then he grabbed the knife. OH i forgot to mention when i saw the house like this i grabbed my screaming son and put him on my hip .So back to the beating. mind you I am holding my son still.

So I managed to get the phone and dial 911 and call the police. half way talking to them he takes the phone and throws it against the floor. He runs away and the police come i file the report blah blah blah blah blah. Anyways the arrest him and appoints me to court the following day. OH yeah I pressed charges, filed a restraining order and all. He got out on bond. and yo think that would be it right. WELL NO that same day he wrote me an email. He was caught peeping through me window. Just making my life hell. We kept going to court for the next 3 months just for the judge to fine him of $100 and 3 weeks of anger management classes. That's it.

Well in about August a month after this whole incident Sammy and i did the do..And guess what our protection didn't protect so here i find 3 months later I am prego with Arianna. going through all this at the same time. Some may put the all the fault on me and that's OK to do that but You will never know what i went through unless you experience it yourself.

So why am i not divorce???? because I don't have the $500 for it. He refuses to pay a penny for it. So i am working on saving the money. Which I am almost there hopefully by the end of the month I can start the process.

So thats this drama. I have more about the custody battle and my mom's case.... also to come biological dad....